When is the right time to tell someone about your mental illness(es)? This question often elicits one of three responses; 1. Be upfront from the beginning, 2. Keep everything private and NEVER speak of it, 3. You just have to “play it by ear” But to be perfectly honest, we all know life is never… Continue reading New Relationships and Honesty
As long as I retain a basic level of functioning, it is far too easy to keep my head in the fog of denial. The part of my mind that always doubts my ability to succeed thrives on the fact that I can still classify to most as “healthy”. My legs have begun to shake… Continue reading I Keep Telling Myself…
Things have a tendency to fall apart so much quicker than I can ever put them together. (This has such a big trigger warning) Recently I’ve been struggling with an increase in intrusive thoughts and memories, but I thought I could manage them on my own. A few weeks ago I was with a friend (we were, for… Continue reading Flashback?
It’s the little things that all start to add up eventually. So here is a list of seemingly unimportant/stupid reasons why I hate having mental illnesses. No longer knowing what amount of hair loss is normally to be expected when showering. Having every part of your body ache, constantly. Needing to stop and sit on someone’s… Continue reading It’s the Little Things…
Dissociation is a word that I fear to use in reference to myself, but it’s the only one I have left. I have become almost accepting of a certain degree of separation within my own mind. This feeling of not even being present when I can see my own fingers typing is no longer a… Continue reading Dissociation
Sometimes procrastination and apathy are reason enough to make it through. Once I had already made a commitment to help someone wash their car, another time I had promised to cover someone’s shift at work (in a months time) and even sometimes I had to sit an exam. Most recently I have honestly just been… Continue reading I Made It To 20
Today I went to the dentist for the 2nd appointment of many that will span over the next 6 months. My teeth are deteriorating quicker than I can fix them. I haven’t even seen my 20th birthday and I am going to need a root canal and multiple fissure seals. This is what I’ve done to my… Continue reading When Will It Be Enough?